When death became an actuality, I felt compelled to write things that would never be read by or important to anyone. Weltschmertz - the sorrow that one feels and accepts as one's necessary portion in life; sentimental pessimism.

A brief history

If you want the truth, well, I looked at my granddaughter, well, like, I have a little electronic screen on my desk that's hooked to the sky and now and again my son drops pictures in the cloud, anyway. I saw her, and you know, sometimes like you meet a girl? And man, you are head-over-heels over this girl, just, Geebus! Flippin' out, can't talk to her, just taken at first sight?

So, I looked at this girl, she's so full of life, I see her growing far beyond what the pictures say, like I can see her future, like I can see her my age having lived a full life. And in my heart, I said I am the unseen witness to your life, seeing you grow in snippets, missing every minute. I know for certain that we shall never meet, you and I, adults, equals. I am far too old while you are impossibly young.


When I knew this, my thought was to say, well, you love her, leave her something that will make sense, or - as I think you will find in my case - at least explain some shit. And, so, sure, you start with, well, let me introduce myself.


Whoo, boy, I never thought THAT would be such a project, but here we are. I am just laying things down right now, cleaning up the base website (I am just using the Google Sites tools because I am more interested in dropping words on surfaces right this minute than in the minutia of the site-building process).

Lot more to come, just got goog and bluehost working, so, is time to feed cats.